Today is the fifth Tuesday of the month, which means that my answer to this heartfelt letter is available exclusively to my Patreon patrons.
When you're wrestling with yourself, it's very easy to wind up in a stalemate, also known as being blocked or stuck. You don't want to give up on the project, because it means a lot to you. But you don't want to proceed, because it's painful and difficult and also maybe because you're mad at yourself for setting yourself a painful difficult task. So you sit there and look at those ten pages and wonder what's wrong.